(Warning, depressive post.)
“You wish you could tell them what you are feeling. That sometimes it feels like you’re lost in the woods, and that if you were to drop dead in your apartment the world wouldn’t notice. You want to make her understand that more often than not, you feel like an alien, like there isn’t anywhere in this world that feels like a place where you belong, and you have no idea how to fix it or what to do. You wish you could find the words so they would understand you, but you end up feeling like an outsider instead.” -(A little text from the game, that really got my head spinning.)
So this is a “game” (more of a deep story with choices) that I stumbled upon when I was looking over some news sites about games and thought to be a real mindfuck.
I didn’t know how right I was, this game have left me like a pile of mush, unable to wanna do anything, and just go to sleep my life away. I can’t wrap my head around all the feelings and reactions I got, reading this. The feelings portrayed in this game were spot on, and the music was perfect for it as well as the hint of daily noise in the background as the story passed on.
The thoughts are still spinning in my head as I type this, the feeling just won’t die down, the feeling of emptiness and hopelessness.
The illness that is depression is nothing to joke about, and for those who live their lives like this, my heart goes out to you. A few pages into this thing, got me crying so hard even though I never saw myself as that depressed at all. All the words hit home and I couldn’t for the life of me believe that one could feel so hopeless. So unable to wanna live. The hopelessness filled me as the words kept going, the story getting deeper and I clicked the choice that I saw fit for me, but the spiral went tumbling down on me until the end, the terrible end. There were no way out again…
This game should be played by anyone and everyone, it feels like it shows such a window into the shoes of depression itself…